a relationship requires something on both sides. a longing isn't a relationship. i'm deeply invested in the person, but whatever is between us doesn't deserve the grand designation of 'relationship'.
i'm not denying my feelings, but i barely even understand what they are. do i love him? or is it just some ideal? or is it caught up in something else entirely? i don't know. i know i feel for him and at times it seems a consuming thing. but i can't bring these things to him without upsetting him somehow or making things somehow worse. i don't want that.
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i'm not denying my feelings, but i barely even understand what they are. do i love him? or is it just some ideal? or is it caught up in something else entirely? i don't know. i know i feel for him and at times it seems a consuming thing. but i can't bring these things to him without upsetting him somehow or making things somehow worse. i don't want that.